Homesick

First day today feeling a bit homesick. Or at least first day I verbalise it for myself. I guess it is a feeling that has been building over time. But the thing that really triggers it at this point is that I do not feel that my work is appreciated. That could probably be taken apart in a number of reasons:
- I am of Scandinavian culture and very much so: minimalism is in my blood stream.
- I have not managed to break the code yet: I do not know what the expectations are and I do not know the style preferred.
- I get corrections all the time on things I did not even want to do in the first place. My work so far on my big project is not mine even so I feel I must take the criticism for what others have instructed me to do. Which is both frustrating and deteriorates my reputation with the other creatives.
- I do not feel connected to anyone of the senior designers really.
- I hardly get to do any idea work and that was what I thought they got me for. Mismatch in communication maybe or just a mismatch.

I guess I would like some kind of feedback session, Hyperstyle would probably help show where we stand. But I do not know how to ask for it. Feedback does not seem to a thing that is used here so much. When the first this internal portfolio is done this Friday I will ask my CD for some kind of feedback. That must be done.